St. Francis Xavier was once a young man who cared only for pleasures. He decided to give his life to God after St. Ignatius of Loyola, asked him: ‘what does it profit a man to gain the whole world but lose his own soul?’ (Mark 8:36). St. Francis went on to become a missionary priest in the India and the Far East, converting thousands of people to God. St. Francis is the patron saint of foreign missions.
This is what my RS teachers and FFP teachers in College told me. I am a product of Xavier University and being a Jesuit School, gives them the authority to preach to their students the “Ignatian Way of Life”. I was called to become a KKP-SIP volunteer, and for 3 years I have spend my time with my co-volunteers and I have also joined seminars and retreats to make me strive for more for Christ and for others, or MAGIS.
I don’t know if I have answered this calling, I do not know if I have lived a life worth living for, and I do not know if I was a better person for the past 7 years after I have graduated from that school. I am no way a Saint, I sometimes burst out in anger, I act foolishly, I easily reacts negatively when people says harsh and bad things about me, and instead of turning a blind eye whenever people bullies me, I bully them too. And that makes me a bad person I guess. I have more to learn in life, and I must, again, instill the values and virtues that my teachers have taught me 9 or 10 years ago.
Yes, I may have gain the whole world, but what does it profit me if I lose my soul. I am not perfect, I am just human, and human as possibly that I can be, I need guidance and I need understanding, and I need to learn from my mistakes. I need to forgive and I need to ask for forgiveness. I cannot continue being a blessing to everyone when I cannot be a blessing to the people whom I consider as my enemy.
I will start to open my eyes and my heart, to see and understand people fully. From now on, this is my goal, to learn to accept the things that I cannot change, and to learn how to forgive without being asked to forgive.